Frustration

Hey Warriors,

Its Melissa. Have you ever had one of those weeks where you accomplish some really great things but they are over shadowed by all the crap that has been thrown at you. I am in one of those weeks. How do you deal with it? How do you find the joy even when it is really hard to see it?

This week Lawrence and I had a speaking engagement and it went great. I also put out my second YouTube video for my crafting channel. I did all the work myself and I was really proud of myself. It gave me a great since of accomplishment. It was all amazing.

Also this week one of our friends got Covid so two of our sons had to get tested. One of our boys tested positive. Its not that we are worried. We honestly feel like what symptoms he did have has passed and he is at the end of it. Here is where some of the frustration comes in. My oldest is missing his first official hockey game of his senior year. Its no ones fault. It just is what it is. All of this is also over Halloween and we have a little one who still trick or treats.

That was just one part of my day. The other thing that happened is that I have had a medical issue that I was praying for a solid answer and treatment plan which I didn’t really get either of. It is a double edged sword to be honest. I am grateful for all of my testing to come back normal but on the other hand I still know something is up with my body and now I am back at square one.

I will say I am not handling any of this stuff gracefully. I am angry, frustrated, sad, exhausted, and want to give up at the moment and just let life pass me by without me putting in any more effort. This is how I have felt for a few weeks. I have not had a lot of big breakthroughs and feel like I am just getting pushed backwards. Seems like lots of things just want to set me back. So what do I do?? How do I try to push past all these feelings??

Well first off tomorrow is a new day for something big to happen. I know that noting will happen if I don’t at least try. Some days this is a fake it till I make it kind of thing. All those feelings are still there but I have to make the choice to make it a better day. That choice is important. You chose the kind of day you will have. Now just because I chose to get up this morning and try to have a great day, does not mean that is the day I had. Today wore me down and my choice for a good day faded away quickly. I allowed all the crap to get to me. Now I feel worse than I did this morning because I feel bad for letting my day go the way it did. Its a crazy cycle.

The next thing I can do is put some self care in my day. I will go take a hot bath or go in my craft room. I can even read a book. Just something to relax me and finish out my day a bit better. Self care needs to be a priority in your life not just for when things are going wrong but also to make sure you do not get overwhelmed and burnt out.

Try to take a step back and see what things you can control. I know I can not control Covid. That one is completely out of my hands. I can somewhat control what I do about the medical issue. I am not willing to just suck it up and deal with it or have parts of my body removed. Going to a different doctor is something that is in my control. I also have full control over what I choose to do next. What I choose to do tomorrow. So I do have some control over things.

Everyone has bad days. Everyone gets frustrated. It is how you deal with it that matters. Like I said, right now I am not handling things gracefully. I am spending a lot of time wallowing in my self pity. I do have the choice to make tomorrow better. You have that choice too. It might not be easy but it will be worth it.

2 Corinthians 4:16 – For which cause we faint not; but though our outward man perish, yet the inward man is renewed day by day.

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Have a wonder weekend,

Melissa McGuire (Relentless)